I have never left Capri with a sitter for longer than 2 hours maybe (though this Saturday I am leaving her for 3 hours with a friend). I have been away from her for up to 5 hours but she was with Stefan during those times and he doesn’t count because fathers don’t babysit they parent (that is a rant for another day).
So on to the point of this post. I have been having a few anxiety issues over the fact that I will have to leave Capri when I go into labour with baby #2 – and I know that it is months away but it is very stressful. She will be 22 months when the new baby comes but it will be her first time being away from me all night and with someone else for that long. She will be going to one of my really good friends houses who has a son a year younger than Capri and she cloth diapers so I know she will know what to do in that area, but I still worry.
I don’t like leaving her. She likes being with me or Stefan. She still needs me at night time most nights. I am hoping that by May she will be better at sleeping through the night but I still don’t like the thought of being away from her for such a long time. I don’t have desires to “escape” from my child for a night like some people do. I like being the one she needs and I am her mom I want to be there for her and most of the time I am the only one that can calm her down if she is upset.
I have talked to one of my best friends about this and she too is super worried (she is due a month and half before me). So I at least know I am not the only one out there that doesn’t want to leave their child.
I am already thinking of the things I will have to do to get her ready for me going into labour. I will want to make sure she has a bag packed and that I can throw all of her diapers in a bag and grab any dirty ones, make sure we have her pack and play ready to go and her car seat installed in their van so they can come visit us ASAP after the baby is born. It is stressful because our hospital is an hour away from where we live so it is not like we are in the same town and she can visit us in the hospital a lot while we are there.
So this is one of my big fears with this baby (leaving my other baby).